Hi, my name is Gina.

I’m a 50 “something” year-old woman, a wife, a mother, a sister, a daughter, and a career professional… along with being a friend, a confidant, and the list goes on.

{silently taking a moment

to find the words}

I am all those things. I am also much more.

I am more than 50 years of experiences and memories. It’s those experiences that have shaped the person I am today. It’s those experiences that led to me finding my higher self… to finding my life’s purpose and

the true meaning of life.

I am grateful for every one of those experiences for they offered me opportunities to make choices that have all led to where I am… which is exactly where I am supposed to be.

It’s not always been so easy for me to say I am where I am supposed to be. So many times, throughout my history, I questioned why

I was here… I always felt like I should be doing more or be somewhere else. It was like

a hunger deep inside me. It was like

I was always searching for something, but I didn’t know for what I was searching.

When I finally realized that I didn’t

need to search any longer, because I was exactly where I was supposed to be and

I had everything I ever needed for

this life, I was confused.

I was confused because I could not make sense of what I was now understanding to be true. My understanding of everything

I had ever known had changed. I felt like

I was in an alternate reality.

My definition of truth changed.

It took me about four years to process my

new understanding. That’s where I’ll begin my story. I’ll start with the last few years and

fill in the other 50 or so years as I do.

When I think back on the last four years, I can only think of one way to put it. I was being tested. Of course, at the time, I did not know I was being tested. It’s only now that I can describe the events I experienced as tests. It took a great deal of processing and reflecting to try to make sense of those same questions that haunted me throughout my life...

Why was I here?

Those tests made me do the hard work to figure out what was important to me. To help me understand why I was here. Some of those tests were painful to say the least. Some of them devastated me. All of them kept me on the journey to where I am today, though. All of them provided me with more and more clarity in understanding the truth I was just discovering for myself and for my life.

These are the most impactful experiences

I have had since 2018:

- I lost my best friend suddenly. She was in a motorcycle accident. She was my person. She was the reason I was able to be strong for those who needed me most.

- I divorced my husband. Thankfully, we reconciled shortly after the divorce hearing. He is my rock. He is now my person.

- We became emergency foster parents to the most beautiful 8-year-old girl. Her biological mother left her at our house because she wanted her daughter to have a better life than she could give her. My husband and I adopted this beautiful girl a little more than a year later.

- I was diagnosed with ADHD during the COVID lockdown when I was adjusting to working from home and learning to be the mother my daughter needed. What I didn’t

know was I always had ADHD. I managed it

for the better part of 49 years on my own.

It wasn’t until my coping mechanisms finally stopped working that I went to a doctor

for help with my symptoms.

- I lost my best friend’s mother to COVID-19. It felt like I lost my best friend all over again.

- I lost my job. The company eliminated my position. I had no other explanation. I had been with that company for almost 10 years.

- I enrolled in graduate school. This may not seem like a very impactful event. However, I had not attended a college course in over 25 years. So much has changed and one of my first courses had a research paper requirement. The assignment took a lot of late hours. I began to question my decision to begin my graduate program. I stuck it out. I graduated 18 months later with my MS HR Management degree.

- I passed out in the middle of the night following my second COVID-19 vaccination. In the process, I fell directly onto my face which caused significant damage to my neck and face. I still have neck pain today but it is not near what it was before my healing abilities kicked in… more on this under self-actualization.

- I lost my nephew to a self-inflicted gunshot. It happened after our family rallied around him and supported him in many ways as he was recovering after a suicide attempt the summer prior. At the time of his death, he was only

13 years old. Because his biological mother

was not in his life, my mother and I helped

my brother raise him. My nephew was

more like a son to me than a nephew.

Please understand this, I didn’t list these experiences to show how strong I am for

getting through them, but to show how what

I went through made me process. By processing my emotions, I was able to find my purpose.

I was able to find my truth.

I was able to recognize I do have a life’s purpose. I do have a reason to be exactly where I am.

My reason is my life. My reason is my experiences within this life. My reason is my truth which manifests in my experiences

in this life.

It took me a long time to come to this understanding. So, when I did, I was confused. I was confused because what I was realizing was nothing like I had understood to this point. Everything I had been told. Everything I had learned. Everything I ever thought to be the truth of my life was not my truth.

After more than 50 years of my life, I have finally been getting to know me. I am now really understanding who I am and what I am able to do. What’s interesting is I have actually known it all along. I only had to remember. That’s why I felt like I was always searching for something. I was searching for me. I have finally found me.

So, who am I?

I am a woman, a wife, a mother, a sister, a daughter, a friend, and a career professional. I may have lived more than 50 years in this life. However, I have lived many lives. I have an immortal soul. I was created to live life and experience everything there is to experience in life. I am infinite in my existence. I am pure consciousness that both creates this great universe and is created by the great universe.

I am learning more and more about

me every day.